I am tired. ALL THE TIME. I think I have come to the conclusion that I will be tired until my kids are grown and out of the house. I hope that is not true but I am preparing myself for that. Coffee is my best friend. Kinda sad you may think but I am okay with it. I love it and it’s good to me :)
Here’s the deal, I am a working mom and have 2 super awesome and adorable kiddos. One of them, turning 3, is my mini me. She has great qualities that will be fantastic to have when she is older. She is very independent, strong willed, creative, stubborn, funny, etc. While that is great and all, she sure does make it hard sometimes. She is a spitfire and keeps us on our toes. We also have a little guy, about 8 months. He is completely different. He is a happy go lucky, go with the flow type of guy. THANK YOU GOD!
I don’t have a normal 9-5 job. I am in the event/sports industry which means weird and long hours and more time away from my family than I would like. I will say that I am lucky to work for an organization and boss that are flexible so while I may work long hours, it’s not as bad as it could be.
My hubby is saint (well sometimes :) ) and is really Super Dad. Many times he is the one dropping the kids off and picking them up, feeding them dinner, bathing them, and putting them to bed all by himself. Honestly, if I had to do it alone as much as he does, I would probably complain a hell of a lot more. But, Chris is great with them and I am so so so fortunate for that!
For now, I am a working mom. I am not sure what the future will bring but for now, this is what we are working with. My kids go to school in the morning and we pick them up around 6pm. Ideally, if Chris could get them somewhere around 5pm that would be the best, but he has been so busy lately that it’s more like 6pm. Which sucks. I absolutely HATE picking up the kids that late. It’s dark outside and it’s dinner time. It just sucks. However, we are in a place where both of us need to work. Could we give up some things in life in order for me to stay home? Sure. However, without getting into too many details, it’s just not a feasible option for us. So, we both work. We are blessed that the kids love their school and Kyler has learned so much already. I am not complaining, I actually love working in events/sports. However, as in anything in life, there are some downfalls.
Also, just to throw it out there, I am NOT saying one is better than the other, ie staying home vs working. I think stay at home moms (or dads) are superheros and can only imagine how hard of a job that is as well. You have to do what is best for your family and only you can make that choice!
But seriously, I always thought I knew what busy was before I had kids. Then we had Kyler and wow, did my opinion on that word change. A long and tiring day at work used to be coming home and relaxing on the couch. Now, it means a long and tiring day coming home to cooking dinner, feeding the beast (aka baby Hudson), cleaning up, bathing the kids, reading them books, convincing Kyler it’s time for bed, taking her 2 more times to the potty, putting her back in bed another 4 times, going back into Hudson’s room to get him to stop crying after Kyler woke him up, keeping my fingers crossed that she stays in her bed, listening to the monitor until I hear silence, and maybe, just maybe making our way to the couch to finally sit down to watch some TV… but then of course I can’t keep my eyes open so I end up passing out until it’s time to head to bed. I ask myself all the time what will I do when they are older and we have homework and practices/games to go to? How and the hell are we supposed to find the time and energy for that? I guess we will just make it work, right?
Don’t even get me started on our weekends. I will admit this one is all my fault. I don’t like to sit around so we are constantly on the go. Disney World, playdates, birthday parties, Target, Publix, the mall, you name it! I should force myself just to stay home one weekend a month just to catch up on rest and housework…. hmmm maybe after the holidays?
So I am tired, all the time. I also fully realize that I am not one of those people that can get 5 hours of sleep each night and be okay with it. I need my sleep. I am not a morning person (no seriously, leave me alone until I have had time to get up and move around for a bit and of course, drink my coffee…. just ask Chris). I would LOVE to find the time (well really the energy) to exercise but I really don’t know when I can. Wake up earlier than I am? Not a chance. Exercise when I get off work? And make Chris do the nighttime routine with the kids by himself yet another night? Work out after the kids go to sleep? Then what time do I have with Chris? I know these are excuses and if I really wanted to, I could find time, but those are the questions I ask myself.
But oh is it worth it. All of it. I never knew how much I would change after I had kids. My life has a completely different meaning now and those 2 kiddos are my world. I will take the sleepless nights just to go in and check on my babies. To rub Hudson’s back if he is having problems sleeping. To take Kyler back to bed because she had a bad dream and give her cuddles. I will take the the busy hectic weekends because that means more quality time with my family and more time to make memories that will last a lifetime. I am okay with caffeine being my main source of energy because I’d rather be busy taking care of them than sitting on the couch. They will grow up and move out and I will wish for these moments again. We may live a crazy hectic life, but hey, we are making it work.